On a more serious note...

Being a "brat" is a lot more difficult than most people think. Having parents in the Air Force (and every other branch of the military) puts a lot of pressure on a child. You are faced with responsibilities most people don't experience for almost 10 years down the road. This is especially true for those of us with younger siblings. Most people don't understand the problems and stress I go through when one of my parents are gone for months at a time. Most importantly, even my best friends can't help me when I'm upset. So when I was sent away to Island Lake this summer for a week to make friends with other brats, it opened my eyes that I'm not alone. The people I bonded with during camp will be my support when I'm dealing with "brat stuff". I am deeply grateful for my girls Spaz, Blondie, and Top because I know they'll always be there for me. I love you guys(:

You three are all I need.

lg voyager,

is possessed. anybody have this phone? grr,
it's cute! but i swear, it has a mind of it's own.





so yeah. i have been gone for ever again. lol
i'm out of track for the season :(
i was supposed to go to state for high jump and discuss
but silly me, i had to go and injure myself!

+inner and outer shin splints
+stress fracture on my ankle bone
+tendonitis
+torn ligament on my shin
D:
my parents kind of jynxed me when the gave me a middle
name that means "grace" in german. oh well...

and for the record, zack's a douchebag(:

chris perez is a creeper.

randomly he tells me that he googled aaron's name
and my posts about him came up on the first page...

turns out, he's right. haha
i realized i haven't logged into this blogspot thing
since like, december when i was at my dad's.

good thing he didn't go around spreading word i'm not over
aaron, because i posted those blogs before i started dating zack.
who i love.




so yeah,
it's been awhile...
i have a myspace now.
search the email: derrtyblonde93@yahoo.com
or the display name: emilybea(:

i'm too lazy to answer emails right now.
i'll get around to it eventually.
:]

let's go, follow me outside.

and i know it won't be long till
i'm holding your hips tight i know
you want to leave 'em all behind.

<3cash-cash

:)

so, i'm doing somewhat better since my last
post. although it still hurts like crazy.
well duhhh. anyway, i'm leaving for my dad's
tomorrow. i'm excited.

ok, so it doesn't sounds like it... but i promise
i am. it's just going to be hard not seeing his
beautiful face until we start school again. and
considering i haven't seen him since math class on
tuesday... :/

according to mein vatti, wir gehen auf 'downtown
dallas' fur ein Party in New Year's Nacht :)
my german is getting better and better, ja? haha.
for those of you that don't speak this amazing
foreign language, i said 'according to my daddy,
we are going to downtown dallas for a party on
new year's eve.

:D

leave me stuff?

oh, and text me. i'll be bored out of my mind while
we're driving to my granny's house.

(360) 773-8982

no stalkers, please.

fear is the heart of love, so i never went back.

death cab knows how to hit you where it hurts.

these lyrics for once, are so deep to the point where
it makes me want to start crying. again...

my life was going way too perfect- i knew it. well, it
all started falling apart when aaron ended our seemingly
perfect relationship. from there, my love life was out
of check, then my grades started slipping because it was
impossible to focus on anything but him, so there goes
my school life. my friends are being very supportive of
me in my time of crisis, but i'm too sad all the time to
ever go out and do anything with them, which crashes my
social life...

so there goes 'emily- a tv special on what a perfect life
for a 15 year old should be like'. :/

don't be sorry for me, i'm doing better. it's been ten
days since he broke my heart, so i've had some time to
let it heal. mehh; they say time will eventually mend
your heart, but all i've experienced so far is that it
has given me time to think about how much i miss you.
your voice, your touch, your kiss, your passion, your
everything.

thanks for listening, aaron.

not.

now keep your love locked down:)

gahhh i'm not allowed to like kanye wizzle anymore.
lol he's apparently aaron's LEAST
favorite person on the planet.

whatevsss.

haha there hasn't been any school
for like, almost an entire week. i
can dig this lifestyle. only 3 years
and 6 months until it's over! haha.
whoa though; 3 years and 6 months ago
was 5th grade... which doesn't seem that
far back. weird how time flys by so quickly,
yeah?

so my birthday was fantabulous; quite
possibly the best one yet:) don't really
feel like explaining all the deets right
now, but eventually i might.

i just want to put it out there that lately, music has
been taking up a large portion of my life. between band,
and just the earphones to my iPod that seem to be constantly
implanted into my head, i pretty much never go without some
type of music in an hour. like now for example, i'm listening
to music. and hour ago? my phone rang, and it played a song.
i guess it could potentially be a good thing, because they say
music makes you smarter, but what does it have to do with any
thing related to school? it's not like i'm allowed to listen to
my iPod during semester finals (which are quickly approaching-
eep!) or another important test... mehh. just ranting. again.

haha.

goodnight lovies:)

wish i could shut my playboy mouth:]

how'd I turn my shirt inside out? inside out babe.

control your poison babe. roses with thorns they
say. and we're all gettin' hosed tonight. what's
going out on the floor? i love this record baby,

but i can't see straight anymore. keep it cool
what's the name of this club? i can't remember
but it's alright, alright.

<3 lady gaga. lol!

life is going good guys. reallyyyyy good:)
for my first term in high school (yes i know
you hate me, i'm a river rat; who cares?)
i got-
period 1: A
period 2: A
period 3: B+
period 4: A
period 5: A-
Period 6: B-

these grades make me extremely happy.

xD

see how happy i am? hahaha. but yeah. for once,
my social life, my love life, and my school life
are all finally in check. at the same time! this
is a very rare thing; if not never. oh well- better
not jynx it! :]

i haven't heard much from my readers
lately- that makes me mildly UNhappy.

Dx

see how unhappy i am? hahaha. really though
guys, i love hearing from you. and my email
inbox is always open to you.

+cough cough+ in case you forgot:
derrtyblonde93@yahoo.com
-OR-
sunny.clouds.go.by@gmail.com

sometimes i forget to check my gmail when i
get on the computer, so if you can, email my
yahoo as the primary source of communication.

you can talk to (or ask) me about basically
anything! i've been told lately i give really
good advice, and i have helped a lot of people
with problems of all sorts:)

or you can just chat me up. i really don't mind.
i just miss you guys. not to seem whiney (like i
once thought i was), but you used to make me feel
so loved in the blogging community.

+sigh+ oh well. i guess i'm done ranting. off to
bed! why so early, you ask? mehh- some of us have
to wake up at an ungodly hour of the day for a lame
ass zero period.

=/

goodnight loves!

'what walks on 2 legs in the morning, 3 in
the afternoon, and 4 at night?' 'mrs. martin'

'that way to hades!'

'whatevvvv. DEV!'